Tuesday, November 30, 2010; Y
Cindrey's impromptu speech about loneliness made me so emo loll. Okay, not her fault cuz she's really sweet and her speeches are all damn good. But her concluding statement was being alone doesn't mean being lonely. So there. I think I've come across the phrase before, somewhere, somehow. But being reminded of it again... sighs. Just this morning I was thinking all this that I'm doing wouldn't have been so tough if I wasn't in it alone.
Well, not entirely alone, I know. Sometimes muel helps when he isn't complaining that I shouldn't have joined jcrc. And I have a few people in hall who are really, really, too-good-to-be-true nice who help me each time I have deliveries and events. I love them so so much. Such nice people... I should make friends with them. Because, see, the thing is, I don't really have friends ): not in school, except for those few I already know before nbs and my proj groupmates, and hardly in hall. Maybe cuz I don't keep in contact. But it's so hard to start to keep in contact when they choose to contact others anyways. Sighs I'm such a failure. It's only sem 1.
Uni is supposed to be all bright and fun. Mr dlim didn't get his facts right/updated.
Zomg why am I suddenly so depressed ): loneliness? wth ):
So I was thinking, what can I do to help others in return and actually interact with them instead. Yeah I know, what a social retard I am.
It's just... the emptiness. When during tutorial just now, I realised that I have no one to mug with. No classmate whom I can rely on like I did last time in nj and before. People like masu whom I've seen and smelt for all those years. Now when I need favours, I just keep feeling like I'm being a nuisance to others. Maybe it's just nostalgia. And this is called moving forward. And I've to swallow the bitter pill and grow up.
And I don't know how many times I've told myself that /:
fall for someone who catches you @13:40
