Last week of May
My library book is overdue by 4 days already. That's about a dollar worth of fine. Damn. I should really finish the last two chapters today! To think I've already extended the loan period by another three weeks. I'm so socially irresponsible ):
At work now... nothing much to really exercise my brainpower with and I'm having a minor bout of M.B. so it's pretty much like every other Monday except that my calves are still aching and as such I really thank God for the miracle that I found the strength to come to work. There are lots of things that I feel like shunning from but these days, tiny bit by painful tiny bit, I don't follow my feelings as much (which is a goood thing!). Anyways, the thing about muscle aches is.. you just have to keep them 'warmed'. Move around more often and you get used to the ache (either that or they really do stop aching as much). But sit around some more and the next time you get up, you'll be wincing all over again. Tskk.
Now I'm just considering my schedule while pretending to be busy at work. I should really plan more ahead of time in the future.
But I'm so upset with myself that I've gotten my schedule this week so messed up. Every day of this week, I have to take either early or late half days. THANK GOD FRIDAY IS VESAK DAY!! Of course it's not for the nature of the holiday itself, but for the fact that it is a public holiday! Not because I won't have stuff to do then so that I can chill or play dead, but because I won't feel so bad having to take another day worth of leave from work... I don't even dare to mark my calendar for June because I know I'm gonna take a whole lot of full days off.
I wish I were still in school. Wearing the NJ uniform whose material I've come to despise so much over the schooling months. Going about normal timetables and the occasional summoning of enough willpower to conquer tutorials and practices.Chilling with friends during breaks and watching movies after school. Just having normal cca practices where no one listens to me most of the time. Not having to care about finances because my parents just gave without me asking and I didn't use to feel bad about it.
I can't believe I doubted the adults when they say that schooling life is so much better.
I was an idiot, and I should have loved being an idiot more D:
Of course I still love growing up. But I'm just having this Moment. Bah.
ANYWAYS. I promise the pictures will be up here too. Lazy to tag pictures on fb for now. I'd rather upload some time-mark pictures here and narrate some more interesting part of the trip to USS! I'm still so tired from unfitful sleep. Can't summon much enthusiasm in blogging. Dunno why I'm typing anyways. Prolly just cuz I'm boredddddddd!! D:
fall for someone who catches you @10:45
USS HAD FUN!
YAYEE! :D USS came true! And it was so much bigger than life, I loved every bit of it. From the distant landscape of Far Far Away castles to every single of the signs at NYC. They're all so well done! :D OH AND THE MUMMY QUEUE AREA WAS SPOOKY. I loved it! All so well done, except for all the *pfft* technical glitches here and there...
Expected. It's only the soft opening anyways. Can't wait till it's the harddd one!!
Had Red Rain concert yesterday, and as I mentioned... my calves were freaking hurting. Even this morning, I walked with my legs angled so weirdly it's like I lost my frigging virginity the day before or something... okay, not a very good reference. But I just meant to say that I walk with my legs opened like the most unladylike bumpkin you've ever seen in a city.
Spent the night at Sengkang after RR yesterday :D I love my aunt and her family :DD so hospitable hahaha.
AUNT SPONSORED 95% OF YANGZHI'S EXPENSES AT USS AND MINE TOO. God bless her and family. How to find such a generous, loving, loving aunt!!!
Had some trouble waking up cuz I got a flu too D: not as serious as masu's but on par with yz's. So today yz and I basically traded saliva the whole day. Timothy would wishhh to be me!
Alright, enough with the prep talk. SHALL GET ON TO THE PICTURES :DD
Unfortunately... after half an hour, the FIVE pictures in the first batch are not even up yet... so I'll wait till after I got the stuff on fb before trying my luck here. Hope I don't fall asleep by then... x:
fall for someone who catches you @19:56
Saturday, May 22, 2010; Y
Yayee it was awesome! I think atmosphere relies on the people to create hahaha we should all have fun together at a concert :D I LOVE concerts! I realise that after BLG and now RR. Whoots! And met some new friends like jo's weili, valerie and three others who had to leave early... and sher's xavier. Not to mention the bonding with my "twin" during hangout after the concert :D HAHA.
I think I ranked top 10 in the whole audi for being the most enthusiastic. loll. Me? o.o even when I don't know any of their songs before I went for the concert haha. But the band's great :D and I love the bassist and drummer especially :D I WANNA BE A BASSIST ): but I had to get an acoustic first... sighs, don't worry Lair, I still love you!
The jumping and screaming apparently weren't so wise after all. After 8.30pm, I felt my omnipresent headache throbbing madly behind my eyes even harder. Why's church so far away from my earthly home? ):
Just woke up! I love sleeping in... so little chances of it these days. Reminiscing the days when I wake at 12-1pm and my mum would have bought nasilemak/roti prata for me and my sister. Then we would proceed to laze around the house... haha.
Calves aching. Maybe if I warm up enough, they wouldn't be so bad. Throat's not pretty today. Headache's still omnipresent... what if I got a tumour in my brain? D: Feeling heaty. And hungry.
No one's home except for me ):
fall for someone who catches you @12:38
Thursday, May 20, 2010; Y
Ugh so angry.
Anyways... came for work for the later half of the day only. Had a headache when I woke up. Now I feel like it's still throbbing, along with the back of my eyeballs. I think it means that I'm getting a fever. Yayee, happiness. Great excuse to play dead at home with eyes propped oepn to watch Personal Preference and after that, Vampires Diaries which debbie strongly recommends. Haha.
Was looking forward to drop dead at home at 6pm+ today... but... sighs. Maybe this will aggravate the fever and I can lie dead for a couple more days afterwards... fair trade! :D
fall for someone who catches you @16:19
Pure update on activities
Nah, not pure, I'll throw in my junk sentiments here and there too :D
Anyways, really, it's about time.
Last weekend was by far one of the most entertaining ones. Friday, I ponned work to go help out at Eddie's mum's florist shop. It's a pretty little thing! :D I loved every minute of helping out there! The de-thorning, de-leafing, wrapping the flowers... hahaha. And Aunty Susan and Aunty Helen are very pleasant people :D especially since Aunty Susan (Eddie's mum) likes people who went to NJ and are studying biz (ie ME!).
Could only hang out till 2+pm before I had to leave for Decor to help out with preparations for Mothers' Day setup at church. It was quite fun :D mostly I did de-thorning of roses again HAHAHA. But I love flowers anyways!! (Thank GOD I'm not allergic!)
Went for General Ops meeting afterwards... PsLia was the funniest and wisest hahaha! I'll go and recall what she mentioned about the 3 P-F's :DD
Helped out Decor again afterwards... till one of the last trains home had to go off.
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Saturday... went for Mothers' Day service for a preview. It was AWESOME :D
After which, joined my aunt's family at this Chinatown restaurant they were dining at. Whoa. I felt so filial begging a florist (it's a he!) who was closing his shop to sell me some flowers. (Okay, so I didn't have to beg, but it was kinda close to begging anyways! haha) They ran out of carnations but I got this purple roses that my aunt's mother-in-law thought was expensive when in reality cost like less than $2 per stalk haha X:
So then I hurriedly went to fine my extended family who had just finished their meals and presented the mothers with the purple flowers! :DD
AND ZOMGOSH QING WAS THERE AND SHE RAN INTO MY ARMS.
I swear, she loves me already :D despite not seeing each other for one or two weeks. It goes to show that she remembers me! I LOVE YOU TO LITTLE SACHIEL :DDDD
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Went to help out with Aunty Susan's place in the morning and got like nearly a dozen carnations and a stalk of rose and sweet williams for my aunts and mum and grandma. It was so fun again :D
Got to service late on Sunday, but my mum and aunts and cousins were already seated. SO HAPPY THAT THEY CAME FOR THE BUFFET AT CHURCH :DDDDD though the tickets cost a bomb (and one of my cousins didn't manage to come in the end so I wasted a ticket one herrrr D: ), it's worth it cuz... MY AUNTS, MUM, AND COUSINS ARE SAVED :D I'm so happy! Everyone I love is going to heaven!!
I sound like a kid, but I pretty much still am anyways, and I'm not really ashamed of it.... not really. Hahaha.
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DSGAGJOU!#UR)W lotsa crap and days went past. I can't remember and can't be bothered to archive them done anymore except for last Saturday... my first usher duty! IT WAS FUN! The fellow ushers were generally nice :D I felt more at home than I did on decor at times. But I hated standing for so long. In any case, I just remember at all times that I'm serving God and His church anyways so ministries are all still fun and enriching to do :D for one, it's very humbling. And you learn about the operations in more details.
I LOVE SERVING!
I know some people don't. Some people prefer administrative duties. I think I'm 60% ground work and 40% administrative. I can't stand doing things, serving in the operations side all the time too. I mean, I need some place to exercise my RV/NJ pure academic and studious skills too, rather than flexing my social abilities and basically doing things all the time, too.
So I'm pretty proud of my constitution :D
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Sunday! Yesterday! ZOMGOSH YESTERDAY!
Met up with debbie, yangzhi and masu ALTOGETHER in like MONTHS.
Now aren't you girls happy that I stayed up till 5am that fateful day before release of 'A' levels results to make yall the ice breaking cards and collages?! HAHAHA so proud of myself.
BECAUSE WE GOT TO HAVE FUNNNN!
I love BAND HERO!
I know masu and yangzhi prefer Wii Tennis more. I mean, it's fun toooo but it's got not that much kick as music games luh. I LOVE, ADORE, SARANGHAE, J'TAIME MUSIC GAMES! Like Audition, when I used to play in the past, for example.
Band Hero rocks! Especially when we got to form a full "band" together with four members :D HAHA! Whew, luckily we hadn't kicked yz out of SGC :D
If only yz knew more English songs that she could sing, then we could play more songs. Hahaha. I love the guitar and bass :D drums are okay... but debbie's already domineering in that area so we just let her be. Hahaha. Vocal is crap easy LOLL. And if you're not shy to sing in an open concept booth area like The Hangout, like me, you won't find vocals a challenge at all. Vocals are for people who have no instrumental music sense like a certain girl who recently fell in lurrrrve. TSKTSK.
Over all, I really love it. I'm going to pon work one day to play in the weekdays cuz then the rates will be cheaper. Though I did a quick, rough mental calculation and discovered that if I worked, I would be earning enough to cover for the weekend play rates anyways what. HAHAHA. But I still wanna play on weekdays! RAH!
Anddddd of course, not to forget, hope that yangzhi and debbie are getting better from the own ailments by now. Yz had no voice left after being our rock vocalist :D hahaha.
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I'm so freaking crappy right now. I shall go read a book or strum my Larry :D
fall for someone who catches you @19:24
Wednesday, May 12, 2010; Y
Hullo, friends [: I'm still alive... really. Hahaha. I'm a life. She's a man, duh! HAHAHA. Colleague Amanda has a nice name, though not nice enough for me to consider naming my daughters that, it's nice :D hahaha.
I'm kind of... sians. Dang, I hate it when I feel sians, sinful. Sighs. I pray for more self-confidence and every other superhuman abilities there is to achieve.
Okay. Die. I'm really very bored. And faced with the weekend of things to do that I really don't... know if my mind will survive through... I wonder about stuff that I seem to be missing out on, and I don't know how to feel. Okay, I know how I feel. I feel terrible up till the moment I forget about it for a while, before remembering the dilemma again. I think I need more support in my life, but it appears weak and lousy to still require guidance at this stage in life.
I feel like a child still, so immature. Don't I need to grow up quickly? How to? Such insecurity. I thought I found something to latch onto. But as is the case with all things in my life, the intangible distance keeps wanting to lengthen itself. Only, I won't let it happen this time. Not if I can help it; not if my prayers are answered. The old me has to die a thorough death, or it will kill the transformation.
I don't know how the blog post drifted to such a dire note. It just happened. Oh well, outburst. Anyways, I wanted to cut and dye my hair today. But couldn't reach my mum through the phone (turns out she went out without her mobile) so the idea got postponed. Much to my gigantic dismay. Because I recently changed the side parting of my fringe, the previously layered fringe (which was nice before it grew so monstrously long one month ago) has rebelled and here I am, exposing my ugly hair to the cruel judgment of the common Earthlings. My desire for a haircut is therefore much justified.
As for the colour job. Weeeellllllll. I need something to distract me from my horrifying face more often when I look into the mirror these days. My face, and especially the area under the eyes, has been easily swollen recently. It's a sight to behold, in addition to my swollen (with fats) body.
I'm tired of crapping already. Lets do some lists instead!
Off the top of my head:
Things that I would very much regret if I were to die in the next 30 seconds...
1] Wearing black hair for the whole of my less-than-19 years of life (though this can be fixed by the undertaker or whoever if my parents were hip enough to let them).
2] Not having fallen in love and lived an eventful life like SEP's books'/Taiwanese/Korean dramas'/Hollywood romcom movies' heroines.
3] Not having gone to the university (NBS D: ).
4] Not having led a holier life.
5] Not having succeeded in slimming down and looking pretty.
6] Not having had a career and owning my own business (cafe or some little shop)
Can't think of more in the past five seconds.
Things that I really want to possess at the moment...
7] Skullcandy headphone
8] Back To The Basics album
9] Ip Man dvds
10] collection of all the 20 odd books SEP has ever written
11] iPad/iTouch
12] that Ralph Lauren bag/Akris Ai bag
13] pretty AND comfy pairs of wedges/heels
14] colourful clothes
15] un-dreary work clothes eg freaking pants, pencil skirts
16] Faith by Phil Pringle
17] a driving licence
18] oh, and a sports car in yellow please
19] zomg I can't believe I only just thought of this - GBP 1 billion hahaha
Things that I want to learn...
20] oh yeah, driving
21] Korean, French, Japanese, Spanish... you get the idea
22] how to dance
23] how to master acoustic guitar chords
24] how to play the electric guitar
25] how to set up a business... and run it to success
26] to adopt a British accent and more English vocabulary and better grammar (for example, I've just committed many grammar errors)
Places I want to go to...
27] Hokkaido, Japan
28] London, England
29] Chicago, Las Vegas, Los Angeles, California, United States
30] Seoul, South Korea
31] Heaven
People I want to murder in cold blood...
Just kidding.
Lazy to colour code!
And if you're thinking I made some of the lists because a certain 23rd is coming up... YOU THINK WRONG! [:
fall for someone who catches you @20:23
Hip Love Song
Zomg. There are so many things to update on. My weekend (Friday included) had been so exciting and different from the routine :D I love it when I'm doing something different from the wake-eat-work-eat-sleep routine :D Instead of documenting the times down on a nice little corner of cyberspace like I usually should be doing... I'm being a teenager.
Granted, a girl near-nineteen is hardly a teenager anymore - it's so bloody awkward!! D: But still. Why else am I so hormonally driven???
ZOMGOSH.
Rain is so hot.
Not convinced?
Alright, I'll try again, for those who need more than a line of mild persuasion.
RAIN IS SO FREAKING H O T !!!!!
Considering that Micky has been inactive for more than a while now, I'm tempted to claim Rain as my new Korean husband :D if he succeeds, my collection of manly, uber-hot-bodied set of American, Hongkie, and Korean husbands will be complete. I gotta say, Micky's exceedingly cute and talented too... just not manly like Rain dearest X: HAHAHA. I speak like a connoisseur.
ZOMGOSH I REALLY LOVE RAIN YOU KNOW. His voice is so special! You can really just tell from his songs. That breathy, low, cute little voice from a muscleman hotshot. GOSH. I do love him. Plus he has a good reputation as a humble, down-to-earth artiste. WHAT'S NOT TO LOVE ABOUT HIM?!?!?!
Unless you're a psychopath like a certain Burmese friend I have who fears of buffer guys (because they are more likely to sit on girls, according to some fictitious source), you really have no reason to not like him. (Ahem kidding, masu :D )
Sighs wistfully.
I'm so going to get his Back to the Basics album even if it means I have to live on air (again) for the last week of May. ZOMGOSH. Please come to Singapore, sweetheart ):
Lastly, for the benefits of readers' eyes and ears, please enjoy:
The fact that he thought about his poor little international fans/wives like me further strengthened my resolve to get his album. AND HIS ENGLISH IS NOT BAD WHAT. So pwoud of him! :D HAHA! So happy that we get to sing Love Song in English because he's such a smart little doll, he made an English version of Love Song to please us.
LURB HIMXZXZ.
fall for someone who catches you @21:18
Time is Running Out
Yeah it's the Muse song. I love Muse! I still do really, despite my pledge of love for BLG dearest Sighs, I'm so tired today. Dead tired.
Went out to celebrate wy's birthday at some ulu Chinatown steamboat yesterday! Was grumpy about having to eat buffet cuz it would effectively kill my wallet and my dubious fitness level. But it was free! Hahaha thanks to her boyfriend (or rather, fiancé). Anyways I had lotsa fun hahaha especially after urh three mugs of the China beer. Zomg. Harbin beer or something. It tastes milder than Heineken, Tiger, the Jap beers and all. That's why I realized I was drinking a bit much for a Monday only after having drank that much… Whatever… hmm.
I'm blogging from work. Shhh X:
So yeah yesterday was pretty decent-crazy. Whooo.
I'm bored.
Hmm. Do I have anything to blog… well, Sunday, dearie Qing and family came over to our place at bl. Whoa :D I LOVE HER. She's such a cute, devilish little angel :DD miss her already. Of course. Wish I can read her bedtime stories (though every time I tried, she gets restless and starts pulling my hair and all. Pfft. Knowledge is power okay; or as Edlyn's friend put it, knowledge is at least a master tool to power.
Though you probably won't see exactly how the story of Snow White is linked to gaining power.
Sighs. I'm so bored. I just calculated my finances. After the necessary deductions � necessary!! � I will only be left with an average of $4.18 (rounded off to the nearest cent) on food and things miscellaneous to spend per day. Talk about pathetic. Really.
Of course… you can be nice and get me things that I reaaaally want for that particular day in May…….. ahem.
I WANT TO GET A SCHOLARSHIP TOO )))))))))):
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Get it now.
fall for someone who catches you @16:11
Kellan Lutz
He is the reason I smile sheepishly to myself every morning and evening I pass by the Calvin Klein store at City Link Mall. It's a freaking larger-than-life him splashed across the shopfront! And I CAN'T GET OVER HIS FREAKING SEXY SMIRK.
Everyone, meet Kellan Lutz! :DD
He's born in 1985 (imdb says so) on the 15th of March (if my memory serves me right), which makes him six years older than I am. THE PERFECT GUY I'M LOOKING FOR LOLL. Okay, so personally I find guys four or six years (notice it's not four to six years - lets just say there's this thing about even number I appreciate) really ideal. Is that wrong? HAHA. No, of course not.
And trivia for you and I. He is part of the twilight cast... and disclaimer: no cookies for anyone who guessed who he is on the vampy movie. I couldn't guess who it was at first, when I was reading about him on some crappy blog (landed there through google image search). My bet was on the werewolves though. Turns out, he is Emmett Cullen in all his hunky glory. Like... YOU DON'T SAY!!
I love him so much better off the movie though.
BUT GOSH. So hawt [:
And I want to watch Ip Man 2. It's just that I still want to bitch about the dubbing thing. The original track is in freaking CANTONESE. What the hell, I bet at least 25% of Chinese Singaporeans who understand dialects, understand Canto. AND THEY HAVE TO USE THE DUBBED VERSION. Why don't they doubt Thai movies too? I'm sure even less people understand Thai. And Japanese? Korean? Ugh.
It's a dialect, but it's still a cultural ingredient to a movie. Whoever big on the management table decided on the dubbed movies to be played is just not getting it. I don't understand why. Or is having Chinese and English subtitles together on the same big screen when the movie's playing too troublesome for them? Ch5, U and 8 do them well on much smaller screens though, don't they. It's just so unfair to people who understand the dialect and feel weird looking at the characters' mouths move in such different ways from what they hear they say through the theatre speakers.
Ugh.
Okay, fine. So I'm being such a bitch because I want to hear Donnie's real voice in Ip Man 2. And I admit that the dubbed version isn't all that bad cuz it was dubbed rather fluently.
But nothing beats the original voice, sighs. I could go on about Stephen Chow's movies on Ch8 too. BUT I SHALL SPARE YOUR EYES :DDDDDDDD
Missed service today... Ps David Roberts was preaching /: sighs. It must be great though!! But I got to serve some time at home too... and qing was here :D I'm so happy [: thank You, God :D
fall for someone who catches you @22:43
Dreaming Big
Today was so inspiring. I think that the way God moves is really amazing. He's really making me hear Him... like how today I sat through about five hours worth of talk in church, mostly listening about dreaming big from at least six, seven different people, each with their own little success, heroic stories to tell. Whoa. Just so impressed, amazed, and most importantly, inspired, man. Can I say I love Affluence to Influence Conference? It's just so so so so inspiring!!! :DD Lots of love to the speakers Mr Ivan Heng, Ms Yihui and Mr Iskandar Ismail.
They are so cool. I know I'm not capslocking the words 'so cool'. It's cuz they are SO COOL that just capping the words still won't show the extent of how cool they are anyways. Gosh. INSPIRINGGGGGGGGGGGG.
So really. Wow. It's really driving home the point about dreaming big. About daring to take chances, risks to make ideas happen regardless of how foolish they sound initially. Regardless of how others mock you. Because the people of the world just want to pull you down, they just want to judge you. How many times have you heard of rags-to-riches businesspeople getting lots of warmth and help from everyone they meet between their starting point at the rags, and the point when they strike it big?
I just think... wow.
Since I'm gonna be a businesswoman, there are lotsaaaa things that I can choose to specialise in. I'm still thinking. I'm still letting my dream form. And once it's there, it's gonna take the world by storm!!
And I'm so amazed by hogc and our pastors and leaders... wow. HOW can anyone not respect them, once they get to know their hearts and everything they stand for? Role models!
On a side note, I CAN'T WAIT TILL SCHOOL STARTS :D
And another note: my new colleague, Amanda, is kinda cooool :D someone who looks like a party girl, has expensive taste, but loves to sleep (or so she says hahaha). And us three, plus masu that is, are going gymming in between work and/or after/before work :D at Fitness First!! HAHAHA. It's a plan already. And since we must dream big... WHY THE HELL NOT? It's good to start early anyways right? :D
Last note: I feel like I'm wearing diapers. The pad's freaking 42cm or something long. Haha I think I'm exaggerating... or am I? Hmm. Dunno, don't care alreadyyy.
fall for someone who catches you @01:09
