Tuesday, March 30, 2010; Y
Sighs. I don't know how bummers can stay bummers for months, years, decades on end. I really don't know. As much as I enjoy the free time I have to read the romance novels I picked from the library, and play Larry off and on... plus the less interesting things in life and sweeping, washing and cleaning... there's not much going on in my off-church life ): partly cuz everyone's busy with their own work and school, leaving me alone to my sinking lifestyle. Which I semi-despise. It's a hard feeling to muster you know. Tsk tsk.
It's like I'm cruising through my life... and I know it's wrong. I do. I just don't know how to thicken my skin and go round jurong point looking for jobs cuz... I'm too self-conscious. And everything. Okay fine I'm cowardly too. Grand. And my agents stopped calling after a few putting off on my part due to my conflicting schedules with what the employers asked for.
I have some grumbles but don't know who to voice to. I don't want people to take them the wrong way, and I don't want to appear selfish too. I know my thoughts are wrong, but they aren't going away. So what do I do?
fall for someone who catches you @22:06
