Sunday, January 17, 2010; Y
I'm sorry for all these that I'm feeling, about all those that have passed but lingered on to haunt me. What of my wrongdoings from the past that I want to rectify but somehow just can't seem to find the right way to go about doing it? If it's wrong, is it bound to always be wrong? Each day that I look back on what've been, I grow more and more detached, and more and more sorry. But I would also ask, if that is what I really want? Look at what's come from my wrongdoing. Has it unveiled anything that I won't miss from being apart? I look at them. I don't know what to say. Who are they?
I enjoy going to church. Really, I do. Despite the multitude of people milling about the place, 99% of whom are really just strangers to me, I managed to find some semblance of peace and happiness at that place. And learn to keep faith in someone, something. Someone who's worth keeping faith in, unlike mortals who are plainly ever-changing. Of course, the little company I keep is really nice too :D
Shall begin with Sunday. Cuz there really hasn't been much. Stayed overnight at my aunt's place in Seng Kang to visit my favourite little girl in the world [: she's such an angel even when she's spouting gibberish and everything. And she has the most smooth sounding voice I've ever heard ♥ okay, I'm being rather biased but still :D she called me JIEJIE!! Just once. But I picked up on it all the same. I love herrrrr!~ Please get well from your flu soon, my darling [:
Almost finished Baskervilles during my afternoon at their place there, when my cousin napped. Then I took a really long train ride home, reading the Bible on the way home. Soon, I'll catch up with the Bible reading schedule set by the church [: yayee! And please, Lord, help me in understanding your words... :/
Saturday. Early morning, had korean lesson number 2. It was pleasant. Complicated vowels are REALLY complicated o.o they merely look different but mostly sound the same. We also learnt some korean vocabulary. Mostly english-korean words. loll. Thank goodness they don't have a separate set of alphabet for such words like Jap does!
Went to swim with peisi after the lesson! It was such a pleasant weather to swim in! I love it sunny :DD But we put on the sunblock a wee bit late and ended up kinda tanned still :// sianned. It's possible to enjoy the sun and water without getting tanned right??? Poor peisi got sunburnt even X: oops hahaha... but like all caterpillars have to undergo shedding to become the butterflies that they are, enduring it till the skin's all peeled off could do her a world of good too :D hahaha.
Swam ten laps!! (In our dictionary luh :D hahaha.) So proud of myself. The past week I ran about 2.5km (I insist that it's a good distance, seeing that I haven't been running since napfa ended) and swam 10 laps :DD
:DD After which, we had Subway! Less than 6 grams of fats with the Healthier Choice symbol ;D HAHAHA. Some people (like edlyntan) say that Subway isn't all that healthy. I don't know if it's true when they say that, but it has to be the healthiest choice among all the fast food restaurants already!
Went home and zoned out for a straight half an hour. Had to wake up and clean up for service later that day. Told sam that we were going to be early that day :D
Service was fun that day! :D As always. Sermons was delivered by Pastor How, back from his overseas trip with loads of interesting anecdotes. He went to the CES in the City of Sin and told us about the amazing technologies available there. Wireless POWER, 2-cm thick LED TVs... zomg.
Sermons that day was on Waiting. Waiting on the Lord, and various instances, and the benefits of waiting, the lessons made out of waiting. It's really cool and enriching, I feel. From the Christian point of view, waiting holds more symbolism than when you're not one, I think. Hmm.
I don't go into details about what I've learnt during services because I think that if anyone else wants to know more, they would ask anyways. "Ask, and you shall receive" hahahahaha. And okay fine, I know there are people who aren't interested. I was like that too. I don't get spiritual stuff. I still don't; I don't claim to know any more than I used to know. But I would like to think that I'm gaining more each day, because I try to get in touch with the Spirit in me as and when I can. Not everything about a religion agrees with me at times. But I like the whole idea of it still [:
Dined with edlyn and some church friends like Joy [: SUBWAY AGAIN! Hahaha I had veggie delite and oatmeal cookies. Ate at the church while they screened Music & Lyrics on about four big screens in the whole auditorium loll. It was a nice effect and all. Very nice movie too. LOVE IT! Don't know what took me so long to watch it! Me and lynnie love Alex Fletcher (Hugh Grant) to bits! His accent and witty dialogues are just so !@$£%@^%U-ly attractive. I wish for my guy to be as eloquent as he is.
Left after seeing sam when the movie ended. Borrowed $4 from edlyn to cab to seng kang cuz it was rather late D:
Friday. Worked like normal. Got back the results for our first quiz... I was five marks away from passing ): What the hell. 60% and I still FAILED ): Only three people passed in the class of twelve x____x damn it. I was really close. Stupid tax computation!
Then we had quiz 2 x__x it was dreadful. I finished with 40+ minutes to spare. Didn't bother to really check cuz I dunno how to answer the questions on Payment anyways ): I'm so dead. I can't believe that we're supposed to be manning the lines by Tuesday latest o.o zomg I'll have so many complaint calls that they'll fire me before I can cry for help :/
Went back to nj after work. It was surprisingly easy to find my way to school from work! As such, had to wait for miss big card for an hour just at the gate of the school. x____x Thank goodness I consciously thought of the meaning of Waiting.
Anyways, I bought Fortune Cookies and a tub of Hello Panda for my juniors :D and tangtang loves hello panda! He does! I offered him the tub and he reached in and grabbed a handful :D LOLL. He really resembles a kid who used to make us laugh during practices over the last two years [: oh, and how can I forget, he even reached out for a second helping when I've already capped the tub closed X: hahha.
Seeing my six juniors was nice :D wait. Six plus one at the back, by the keyboard :D hahaha. I like the songs that they're playing! Very nice and melodious. Simple notes too, I guess. Can't remember the exact spelling of the song names so I shan't disgrace myself by hazarding any guesses. Then again, with simple notes comes the importance of details like dynamics and articulation. I hope they will practise and do well by the time of their concert [:
Step up on it, njhb :DD
Left with miss big card - fine, EVELYN (LOLLLLL) for dinner. Mind you, she initially was not keen at all to dine with me pfft! The meanie. Cuz apparently her boyfriend booked her first x___x thanks to him and his generosity anyways, for I ultimately got her company loll.
Had subway :D and loads of things to talk about. Chiefly about a scandal that she's been observing at work. Seriously. To pollute a mind as innocent and pure as mine is heinous. Tsktsk. loll. But since it's one of her many sources of entertainment during work, hope she has fun deciphering the Codes of Boy-liking-a-girl.
I still think that when a guy is seemingly excessively nice to a girl, it doesn't have to be a like in the romantic sense. Why can't he be just platonically nice to her? Why must people make too much out of it? Hmm. I dunno if I'm the one thinking immature here or them. Maybe I don't want to know, anyways loll. But then I know of cases about how guys are just being nice to girls, and they are only platonically interested in the girl at the same time. See.
Sighs. Actually, forget it. Things like this are too difficult for me to process.
Should sleep. I like today, being one of the only days in the past week whence I've got eyes that aren't bloated like shit. To keep it up, I need ample sleep... oh, and ample detoxification too. By Jove, my unmentionables are turning into fossils soon, if they aren't excreted any time soon.
why did you plant poison into my mind/:
fall for someone who catches you @21:03
