I'm so fucking screwed.
At this point in time...
What I don't know:
i. how to decide on the uni/course to go to
ii. how to apply for them... yet
iii. if I still have a job
iv. IF I don't have a job anymore, how to go about getting another one
What I do know:
i. I'm turning green seeing everyone having better results than I can ever achieve
ii. I can't get a scholarship with my grades and also because I'm not a leader extraordinaire
iii. I have zero to no savings. My mum earns meagre pay. My dad's dabbling into the stock market since God knows when and we all know how people really go bust from doing that. My sister is next in line for university education.
iv. I don't even want to say that I'm lost since everyone else is saying the same thing when at least they are either a) smart or b) rich or c) have time to mull it over during NS/take SAT - and I'm actually d) none of the above.
v. I'm very, very hungry. Nobody's home ):
So there. Been careening through jobstreet.com and I'm pretty much stuck at zero application. Damn it. Don't even know what I want. I should send myself off to Cambodia or some place and do volunteer work, if I'm going to be wasting oxygen, not working, not being smart and everything, here in Singapore.
I really need to kbox. Either with the fc girls or my colleagues. Soon.
While I'm on a rambling spree, waiting for the pictures to upload, I might as well crap some more. Anyways, as people (like wny) have realised, I'm back to my old blog address. It's cuz I finally got rid of my older stigmas (ref: previous post) and also cuz I won't be meeting old schoolmates in bulk anytime soon so I feel safer blogging nonsense back where they belong. In all honestly, spin-s is really much sweeter than falalalala-lala-la-la-la. (And psst you know what, I suspected that my I.B. knows about my fllll-ll-l-l address x: )
And what else.
Hmm.
I dunno D:
Never mind. The pictures are taking too long. I shall go buy myself some comfort food... ttfn.
fall for someone who catches you @14:19
