Thursday, January 14, 2010; Y
Had fast food for lunch for the third day consecutively. Ugh. Was saying that I might be having constipation, and that my shit was turning into fossils at the rate that I am going. Tsk tsk. Didn't mean for our new company to catch that. But apparently almost everyone did and they think it gross. I still find it a pretty cute expression you know :D
Early this morning, was late again. loll, I should watch it or it's gonna turn into a habit! Met a friend of mine on the train to work o.o like ZOMG I was so freaked. I mean, what are the odds! At 7+a.m., on a Changi-bound train from JooKoon?? Zomg. Seriously freaky.
Work today was agreeable. At least, I really learnt through the role-play. (Finally not dozing off in the morning!) Tomorrow's my turn at role-play ): and there's gonna be a second quiz ): and there's going to be the return of our quiz 1 results )))))))):
I pray, dear God, to survive tomorrow with a sane mind. Please, pleaseeee :/
Hmm. Anyways, something unpleasant cropped up in the course of today :/ I hope it will be resolved naturally soon. But it's really another case of differences in/clash of characters. This time, I really won't dwell on it too much to make it a real issue, as I might have unwittingly done so in the previous cases. This time, I will forgive, and then stay clear of the person's path, I really will. And after which, I should really look into how I speak.
Like, I shouldn't get too carried away poking fun at others by being sarcastic and saying things that I (obviously) don't mean but are perceivably mean at the same time; should the other party be any less openminded than... say, the Statue of Liberty (urh, right, lousy zp LOLL), I would be in deep trouble. Like I did today. Well, not deep trouble. But it is troubling.
I also am too mindful of how people talk to me about my worse qualities, I admit. I become rather defensive or peeved. I think I'm okay with it if someone really talks to me about such things in a more understanding, I-hope-that-you-will-improve-because-you-are-someone-whom-I-care-for way, instead of the this-about-you-is-so-wrong/bitchy/silly/repulsive-so-you-shouldn't-do-it-anymore way. I mean, durh right. Some people can be pretty accusatory when they want to. And I hope that I'm not one of them, seriously. Matters like this, people should be tactful about. Or the person at the receiving end of such urh (sometimes constructive) criticisms may be really upset by such comments.
I've had to go through the difficulties of such instances one too many times already...
Sometimes I really may be too forward in my words, when I don't think before I speak. Many of the times the things I say are much regretted. There are people who don't like it when I speak of things in a certain way to them, so most of the time I remember and I refrain from upsetting them where possible. I really do want to try. But if you want me to try, tell me in a more pleasant manner that hopefully doesn't carry the whole impression of I've-been-sooooo-sick-of-you-doing-that. I appreciate that sometimes people act out of my own good, but I really wished that those times, their approach was more understanding and nice. It's a mere wish.
But of course I recognise that I'm still the one who's at fault many of the times and I still really think I'm such a nuisance sometimes. I don't speak in a correct manner, don't act my age and all. Sometimes, I only grew aware to the irritation I've caused to others only after the whatever I've done to irritate them. :/ I guess even if God loves all his creations, His creations can still afford to be flawed like I am /:
Urh, and I'm not emo (for clarification, since I've been known to my half-a-dozen readers to be one who has had the misfortune to indulge in such depressing times on several occasions). I'm just making a revelation of sorts :D heh. Like trying to gain some insights into my own life (but failing terribly).
It's times like this that first prompted me to search for a religion, or anything to have faith in. To find something for guidance, also. At present, you see that I've chosen to adopt a religion. For this, I will keep my faith.
Currently obsessed with All The Right Moves - OneRepublic. I think that the band is a genius by itself. Zomg I can't imagine the sheer bliss if I could attend any live gig by them and they play this very song. ZOMG FAINTSS~
Anyone knows the meaning of the song? hahaha.
Visiting njhb tomorrow :D hope it'll be nice, cuz it's going to be MY first time since we passed out! X: Should I bring my harmoc along? hahaha.
fall for someone who catches you @21:39
